Tuesday, May 03, 2005.

weLL.. i m overwhelmed by my own emotions today n yesterday.. i nv love to watch romance vcd coz i will end up envying n crying over the silly scripts... sOmetimes i really wonder y i can spend those money on the vcd??? heHe.. i m rather impatient person so i juz cant wait for the tv to show the episodes onli once a week.. kills my appetite.. anywaY~this gonna b a really emotional entry so pePpz can juz dun b too bothered by my words.. i noe i mite hurt or even upset many ppl out there in my previous entry coz i can c xp trying to explain in her own blog.. but seriously, if u were to stand in my or even our shoes.. u will eventually feel it.. not about bf over gf thingy.. it is the kinda connections wif ppl around u esp ur frenz.. i muz admit tat i had a strange kinda connection wif my gal team.. knowing them really perks up my life.. *bLush*.. tat is the pt y i m getting quite upset seeing us part further n further.. it is the kinda stranger look u c from them... but i nv blame them.. mayb it is on my side.. i had some probs bah????
i reaLLy wonder if anyone had ever chance upon the feeling of real depression or sadness?? to a point like tears wouldnt even flow out coz u r already hurt too deeply??? i bet anyone out there would not wan to haf such a horrible feeling.. likewise for me.. i din wan to but i did... not about frenship.. wat's more to say relationship.. it is my family... it is hard on my parents but oso as hard on us or mayb even harder... i m really tired... i feel like sleeping forever in my beautiful dreamland where everything is juz so happy... oh ya.. dun get the wrong idea tat i m going to die.. i m not.. i still treasure my life... everyone was saying live ur life to the fullest so tat u haf no regrets.. but we r onli so human to haf regrets.. dun u agree???? i regret many things in life.. i regret telling mom wat my dad was looking for when he came home yesterday.. i regret not being able to stop this family crisis.. i regret not being able to come out wif gd soln to salvage this going to b or almost broken family...how can life b so cruel to a seems strong but weak ger??? the tears tat was supposed flow out went rite to my stomache n fill it up.. it has been a day n a half since i ever eaten anything... i kinda miss shuwen now.. she when we r in jc.. will always lend me her shoulders to cry on... she still did when on the day of our collection of A lvl's results...i really wish to haf a shoulder to pour out my hiding tears and find someone hu will gif me a warm hug to let me noe tat life is still beautiful... weLL.. i guess this is quite impossible...
i wish god can gif me the extra strength to continue being strong... sometimes.. u would rather be drunk even when u r not so tat u can dun face the truth.. tat is wat happened when i m in wendy's hse for bbq.. i was so high tat everyone tot jeanne muz b abit drunk.. haha.. but weNdy!! thankz alot for the Bbq.. i had a great time.. n i oso had a great time celebrating wif Hui Leng for her bDay... glad tat she enjoy herself.. oh No~!! guess i m overly emotional here.. but hu cares.. i would not bother by how ppl look at me.. i will still b fine... i will still try n overcome the sadness n be happy again... :)

{ 5/03/2005 05:56:00 PM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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thanks.

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