Sunday, May 01, 2005.

haHa.. pePpz out there muz b thinKing y jeaNne haven BeeN doing her routIne blogging... ya.. so many things happen.. let me recall back.. heHe..y did disappear for so long.. coz my damn comp was spoilt after using it for 2 weeks after i repaired my comp... suckz rite... was kiNda pissed off wanted to get a new comp but din... so onli until recently then we get the comp done and for god sake.. i called the stupid linksys helpline again wif the officer speaking so machine like and getting irritated wif me.. i shOuld b the one being pissed off wif such lousy attitude but i learn to tolerate and in the end i still raise my voice at the person n wOahla... the person became polite.. sometimes it juz dun pay off to b nice... my bro managed to get the internet up n here i m blogging again...
thiNgs juz moved so fast.. i m now working in irAs and part time tuitioning and some other jobs.. been there since 12th aPril and working there for 2 weeks liaoz.. made loads of cool frenz esp a mixed jap n chi ger named keiKo.. she is super cute and onz kind.. juz talk and laugh whenever she like not concerning how ppl mite look at her.. cOol attitude.. i Like it.. jaC hu is my partner is a really gentle and sweet gal.. always buying food for me.. tat explains y i m getting far too fat.. Pls dun tell me i m gaIning wt pePpz coz i noe tat n is pretty upset as well as doing somethIng about it... heHe... kaoz.. after working there for 2 weeks.. i started having my regular headaches coz of the overwhelming form B i m doing right now... i feel so sinful.. wasted so many paper and staple bullets.. haHa!!!! "-_- other than tat i m quite happy coz i m able to meet my frenz again.. when i was working in punggol sec, i m so drifted from my fren coz i dun even haf time to meet them...*saDz*
had a marvellous & funny mothers' day dinner last week.. last week mind u... haHa.. kiasU singaporean.. no la.. coz my grandma is goin to bangkok on that week and our famile tradition is not mother's day but ah mah's day.. haHa... now get what i mean???? :)
life simply sucks ok... work n work.. i cant even go out wif my frenz n whenever i date them out they r always bz... well.. no choice wat... but i m juz so sick of the word "FRIENDS"... n i really mean it.. i no longer haf faith in true frenship... i lost all my gd frenz.. n i really do... as one grows older it is juz so hard to keep one or 2 cool n great frenz wif u... i hated all those bullshit promises tat my frenz gaf me when we r close... those kinda "u can always tok to me", " u can count on me", "call me if u nid help"... fucking meaningless promises... seriously i mean it.. cOme on.. everyone go n spend sometime thinking thru.. do u think this is true??? can u believe it??? i cant even find a fren to go take a walk in town today?? perhaps i a bad frenz coz i always last in sms but i really haf no choice.. i can onli noe my schedule early in the morning if all my work n stuff r on.. i had to go all the way to SIM today alone.. coz y.. i cant even find a fren to go wif me.. even when if tat someone wans to go is coz i beg them to n promise to treat them lunch.. life is juz so saddening.. get wat i mean.. take for eg.. my team.. we used to b damn close n now we r like a pile of sand... this is the most upset part.. n i seriously agree wif wj tat gf r all giving bf priorities.. one thing i m really regretful is tat i m not being able to celebrate wj's bday wif her due to my tuition... i haf cancelled it many times so i was kinda paiseh to cancel it off..hope she understand n i bet she will...
i m starting to lose not onli frenz but myself.. lost my own personality.. my own kinda nature in me.. i had to bare wif my temper and to tolerate loads of unhappy things which i would used to stand up for.. now i understand.. ren zhai jiang hu sheng bu you ji... when u come out to society.. u haf to be careful... words r scary... esp from the gers... and i m juz getting so mei you zhu jian.. i hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway.. i guess i mite not b accepted into ntu or nus or even smu coz i din haf a single letter or phone call... cham.. so mayb i should juz go sim n study lor.. applied liaoz.. worse come to worse... i m getting so fat n ugly recently.. so many pimples juz started popping out.. scArY!! *shrUgs*
lasTly.. i should juz say tat i had a super tough time last few weeks... shall not elaborate coz it is pointless... hope i can still hold on.. i m giving way.. i m juz a 19 yr old ger.. there is nothing much i can do and it is simply too much for me to withstand..i guessed i m actually gd enuff to hold on until now.. i haven even shed a single drop of tear and i really wished to cry aloud!!!... mayb i should go away to relax for a few days.. i m getting far too tight here.. :( ...
*wO zHen de hen naN gUo ni yi diaN dou bU dOng wo de xIn, zhen Jiao wo sHi wang!*

anyWay!! haPPy birThday hui Leng~ :)

{ 5/01/2005 02:08:00 AM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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