Tuesday, September 27, 2005.

waRning the conteNt mite b overly exPlosive coZ i m really angrY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it Has been almost a week since i blog coz my home comp is down n i m so busy @ worK to blog so today before the newsletter arrivEd i beTter blog first.. over the weekend.. many things happened.. esp on the very day.. 22nd SeP 2005!!! @ around 1am in club momo~ tat day momo was having a party n i initially wanted to go wif sarah but she wasnt able to make it.. thus cancelled! but when i was feeling really bored n on the way home.. jaNe smsed me.. she was asking if i m at club momo's party n i told her nope! coz no frenz going.. she too wanted to go but no frenz going wif her so in the EnD! i went wif her.. meet her @ momo around 12am.. n wth! the queue was from entrance to the taxi stand! damn~ but we were luckily enuff to haf met her frenz who is damn pro in cutting queue n brought us in for FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!! haHa.. n tat nite drinks were free as well coz her frenz bought many many jugs n we just had some here n there... *grInz* save $$$$... but!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all these was ruined by one big bastard, arsehole n wateva word tat can fit into this idiot! i muz admit i did saw his nick on msn tat he was going momo tat nite thus wif women's strongest instinct, i felt tat i should go n check it out...........
i walked around n saw his army frenz ( i did not purposely walked around! jane wanted to find her frenz as well) so i was on the look out for him but i din.. when the 2nd time i saw his army frenz.. kaOz!!!!!!!!!!!! i saw he hugging another ger! fucking hell! it was so sudden coz i juz turned my head n saw him with the ger...
i was like jane! "u look at the guy behind me.. he is the guy!"
jane went: "tat guy hugging the ger in white top izit?"
me:"i dunno!"
jaNe:"turn around n see!"
me:"dUn waN lah!"
jane:"y not? juz turn around n see!"
n finally i turned n see.. he din even noticed i was rite in front of him juz tat my back was facing him.. n i told jane.. ya is him.. tat bastard.. at the very moment i saw him hugging another ger.. my heart juz dropped.. i did not noe how to react... i was really lost for words n emotion.. jane was like telling me to go say hi to him but i refused! so she kept turing me around to make me face him so tat arsehole would see my face!!!his frenz kept looking at me probably wondering y is he dancing wif another ger.. coz one of them is oso ex-nyjcian.. i m juz so utterly disappointed wif him.. i dunno if he saw me coz at one moment he suddenly shifted from behind me to quite a dist away fr me.. probably he was feeling guilty when he saw me or he mayb trying to avoid me so tat i wouldnt c thru his true colours.. i m juz damn angry! i kept looking at them from where we sit n i even purposely stand on the podium to dance so tat he mite juz c me there as well... when the music was over.. i saw him exchanging no. with the ger.. which meanz tat he din noe the ger AT ALL!! they r merely STRANGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*daRn anGry!* i m no more than a stranger to him! we have been frenz for 2 yrs.. whenever he is down or haf probs.. i nv failed to lend him a listening "eyes" coz we talk thru sms n msn... first.. he disrespect as a frenz then now.. he make me feel like a silly fool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i admit.. i m partly to b blame for the incident earlier on.. but wtf! he juz kinda make use of my weakness for him.. he noes tat i like him n i muz admit i did...i juz cant believe my eyes... wat has gone wrong? he had changed quite abit recently.. izit coz i din actually really noe him at 1st? so rite now.. i m seeing his fucking true colours.. or has all the pain he had gone thru previously made him changed into a fucked up person now~~ i hate him... i deleted his no. off from my phone n i no contact list coz my bro threw it away last time.. n his msn contact is oso off my list... i m giving him red card!!!!!!!!!!!! he is OUT of my LIFE!! unlike the soccer match.. he cant return to my life anymore... wat a bastard!! aint he???? i shall take it as learning my lesson........... guyz can nv be trusted ok!!! blooDy hell......... he will nv get the jeaNne is always there for him n jeaNne will nv failed to reply my sms.. i ignored his 2 smses after the incident on thurs.. i juz feel like giving him a tight slap across his fucking face... i wasnt really very very upset but more of disappointed @ how he treated our frenship.. yes... i noe.. there is no strings attached so he nid not haf any ans for his action.. but seriously.. he should noe how angry i would.. since he din even bother.. y should i.. like i said.. he is OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! scraM!!! fucker...
there r juz so many things happening in my life which makes me really tired n upset... esp my family... i juz so sick n tired to stay at home... how i wished i m juz a baby.. no worries.. no stress.. no complications in emotions... i juz wanna leave this pl... i wan to scream n cry but my tears juz couldnt get out of my eyes.. probably.. i m juz too upset to cry or shed a single tear... i lost my appettite as well.. no mood to eat.. haIz~
in an sunny island, there is a girl who juz wished for a simple life w/o much responsibility....... when will she get this wish of hers?

{ 9/27/2005 12:51:00 PM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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