Monday, October 10, 2005.

Last weeKend was slow n kiLLing!!!! several things happened... not really big deal ones... last fri went to cb n indochine.. but both parties r shit! i paid for both entrances... wth!! wasted loads of $$$..but guessed wat i manage to talk to him tat day...anyway.. i gonna stop clubbing for a few weeks.. too tired to keep clubbing every week.. *yawNz*
Our conversation did not last long but i managed to clear some of my doubts and i dunno if he had sensed anything fr the conversation.. he dropped me a sms on sat morning.. apologetic about wat has happened b/w us... and asked me not to rmb anything... suddenly, i felt my anger for him was gone... i juz smsed him a 3pgs long sms to juz let him noe exactly how i felt... i dun care if he is going to avoid me, ignore me or scare of me... i juz dun wanna keep everything inside me letting myself to undergo the emotional rollercoaster... i dun care wat he is gonna think of me.. i juz wan to free myself from the suffocating feelings inside me.. i m this kinda person... i aint really brave but when it comes to a point tat i couldnt stand keeping it to myself.. i will let the person noe how i feel... after my smses, he din reply.. guessed tat he din noe wat to reply and how to reply.. letting the time to do the job.. same for me.. i felt relieved after saying the truth but at the same time.. i m upset.. i noe this is not gonna last too long though i m still feeling the slight sadness in me rite now... we will b frenz which we used to b... hopefully... :)
On a lighter note... u noe i was so happy on sat after tuition coz i was asking izzah something then she talked about her teacher alicia(used to be their tutor) and said tat she like her but at the same time she said tat:"teacher i also like u!" i was so happy after hearing tat.. being a teacher.. hearing ur students say tat they like u is an incredible feeling.. the feeling of happiness from deep inside.. she definitely brightens up my sad day... after tat.. i went to my ah mah'z house coz is her b'day and chat with my cousins... all of them younger than me.. but joining in their conversation brought me back to sch.. i really missed my canoeists gerz and guyz and my beloved s3a gers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and oso had a small private conversation with ah wei.. she is one of the most matured cousin though she is 15.. n she is getting prettier! n i luv my youngest niece.. she is juz cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heHe...
speNt the rest of my sun sleeping coz no tuition.. somehow i felt bad coz i m unable to make it on weekdays due to my work... n their examz r coming so near! in 2 weeks time!!! argh!! wat a lousy tutor!! *yeLLs*
my deaRies!! pls meet up with me after examz ok!!!

{ 10/10/2005 06:01:00 PM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

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memories.

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