Sunday, February 19, 2006.

Hmmm.. dunno how to start coz it has been almost a mth ever since i blog.. the pace of my life is getting so fast tat i can hardly breathe!!! serious!! no joke... every week even the weekends r packed with either tuition, getting my room in order, catching up on my sleep n rest ( i seriously nid those!!) n going out to get stuff for frenz.. every week juz zoom pass without me even noticing tat it is coming to the mth end of feb! scary!!! there r so many things i wanna blog but dun even haf the time to.. n i muz be really honest tat i haven been doing my routine weekend jogging coz i m simply too tired to.. yes.. excuses n excuses but hu ever noe how busy i was at work.. take for eg this whole week.. i din really ate much.. not literally ok.. is for real!!! from mon-thurs i did not go out for food at all.. n at times the whole day i haf been working non-stop till about eleven.. juz trying to clear all the work which is already too back-dated! *breaThe hard*
this week was quite a hmmm.. dunno how to put it week.. i muz admit probably i m too stressed up by my work.. on the 13th tat day.. i was so angered by tat ash tat i cried in front of aNdy n gerI! this is how it goes:
after coming back from the post office i wanna go n copy some doc, ash was standing there waiting for andy to print some doc... after waiting for awhile i told him tat ash.. there is no doc coming out, tat is after i check on the print schedule on the printer..he went in n told andy to re-print while i waited.. then after he came out n when the doc printed out, it was blank piece of paper.. i told him tat nothing is being printed.. he said it cant be possible but i told him there r no more doc coming up.. tat is the one andy printed.. this time round he gotten quite irritated.. thinking tat i muz haf touched the printer tat's y the paper came out blank.. he told me :"jeanne, dont touch the printer pls ok!" i was like hello.. i din even touch it n i dunno y ur paper came out blank.. after the 2nd time he went in andy's room again asking him to print but the same thing happened.. paper came out blank.. he looked at me n waited for the doc to b printed out.. but i told him the same old thing.. no more doc in the print schedule.. he argued tat it cant be possible he already asked andy to print 3 times yet nothing is coming.. worst of all was tat the printer toner waste was full n i had to emptied it so he was telling me dun nid to empty it completely.. i was getting real mad.. i told him tat if i dun empty properly.. the printer would haf problem again.. after that he still waited for the doc to b printed.. n i told him the same old thing again!!!! then after he got so mad thinking tat i muz haf caused the prob.. so he yelled at me demanded me to ask andy to re-print again.. i really cannot tahan so i screamed back at him telling him tat it is your job y muz i do it for u.. i dun ans to u.. i only ans to geri n andy.. n he glared at me.. i juz snatched the blank paper off his hand n stomped into andy's room telling him tat the doc din get printed out for no reason.. but i tried to contain my anger.. after tat i pass ash the blank paper n stomped out to the office next door to return something to agnes.. god damn it.. i was f**king pissed la.. who is he to shout at me n demand me.. not even andy n geri does tat ok!!!!!! he dun bloody pay me.. sickening ang moh gao! scram back to your country la.. arsehole!! pui~!!! later when i go into andy room again.. i guessed ash muz haf told him wat i screamed at him.. andy looked at me asking me if i m ok.. i told u NO!! then i started crying coz i felt so wei qu ok!!! i told him i dun like being treated like shit.. i hate to b demanded to do something.. n i was pissed off with ash.. then after talking for awhile, andy got geri to come in n sit in while we trash things out.. i blurted out loads of stuff but still there r some stuff which is making me real upset but i cant say.. i told them tat i was glad to work in pp but i've been becoming more n more unhappy.. n even tot of resigning.. later andy left me n geri to talk.. she was consoling me n at the same time she got me thinna n warren to sit down n haf some words with us.. she told them tat i m really upset n wanna leave the company.. she oso told them to be more co-operative getting the telesales ppl not to gif the recep girls any trouble.. andy even yelled at thinna n get him to conduct meeting right away.. he yelled at all the telesales ppl! *guiLty*.. i was more of upset coz of ash matter, the ts department is actually quite nice.. i mean most of them.. i think andy din really trash or tok to ash.. coz ang moh helped ang moh wat.. well..wateva it is.. i had enough of complaining.. shall not continue on to ruin my juz-recovered emotion..

on v-day.. everything was back to normal.. but i felt kinda awkard coz many of them saw me crying n would haf tot tat i haf caused them to b scolded.. i felt bad.. i really din wanna do tat.. geri was high-spirited coz andy got her flowers early in the morning.. she went out with mas to the bank n came back with roses for many gers.. not every ger but most of us.. n nick gave a few of us a manicure set as v-day pressie.. din spent my v-day the usual way like the last 2 yrs with my canoeing gers.. but spent the day with my colleagues n endin with a supper in lao pat sat with erica, maya n dilpreet... on thurs we went down to warren's housewarming n i got to know his ex gf.. michelle.. i luv this lady.. very pretty n frank.. she juz blurt out watever she wanna say.. she was honest about having a daughter aged 16 though she is only 34 this yr.. n her figure was great... the week ended up better... juz tired.. by fri i was dead tired.. but still i chat with maya till about 1am.. about dilpreet n many many stuf..

went for our cny dinner at hs's house last sat.. but seriously.. i din quite enjoy.. probably.. i was feeling already quite down for the past 2 weeks or so.. stressed n stuff.. or mayb pms.. i felt tat the team is no longer tat the one which we used to haf.. the grp is getting smaller n smaller.. more n more ppl cant b bothered to attend gathering which we organised... should i say tat ppl started to change n having their own lives outside or rather should i say i haf actually lost the sense of belonging to the team.. sad to say.. it is all! n true.. each of us growing up becoming adult n shouldering more n more responsibilities.. which took away alot of the time we can actually spare for so many gathering n occassions... to b really frank, same goes to my gers team.. i guessed.. u gers while reading would feel upset or angry.. but the truth doesnt deny.. we r no longer tat close.. probably.. i m the one coz i can hardly relate to the stuff u gers talking esp uni n sch stuff.. i no longer had tat strong attachment which i used to haf for the team.. apart from sj.. in fact, i nv felt this for my pigs.. as we grow older, i felt tat the bond with my pigs r so much stronger... unlike with the gers team.. yes... we do laugh n enjoy each other company still but how much of the time do we actually seriously from the bottom of our heart felt the kinda happiness we used to share during jc times? to me it is very much lesser.. i m sorry to say but probably coz i m working n in a different world.. but still i do luv my gers for everything n the wonderful times we had.. wat i really hate about growing up is tat one gets lesser frenz n more hi-bye frenz.. ok.. enuff of being so emotional.. let's move on to my colleague who is a total control freak.. she is trying to control me!!! ahhhhh!! *yeLLS for help*

probably hl n wt noe only.. coz i told them yesterday while getting sj n hw pressie.. shall not mention names but the clue is in this post.. juz read hard.. lol!! this ger older than me by 6 years old really haf a mentality of probably 16 or even lesser.. she is simply far too childish.. n seriously i m getting really irritated with all her nonsense n desperate comments n action.. like me she haven been attached b4.. but y does she had to b tat desperate for guyz??? she will ask for good-bye kisses from the better looking guys in the company.. n asked ppl to gif her roses during v-day.. she keep telling ppl tat she has nv been attached n kissed (in terms of french kissed).. dont she think it sounded cheap? she dun even realised alot of guys in the company acctually is quite afraid of her.. all the things she did will only make guys shoo away from her thinking tat she is a desperate queen.. so i told wt.. i shall name her DQ.. she gets rather upset whenever the guyz come over n talked to me or joke with me.. n even when she noe tat me n maya so closed, she questioned.. y cant i b closed to maya??? this is real funny.. she seems to b sticking around with me n expecting me to b her gd fren.. this will nv happen coz i hate to be controlled by frenz.. n my parents dont really control me wat makes u so special to control me.. n she seems to want me to accompany her out even on weekends.. i will nv do! although she is not a bad hearted ger, her behaviour n words r not my kinda of likings.. i get quite sick of such ppl.. in order to know more eg y i dun really like to hang around her, pls ask me when u see me in person.. for better effect.. n picture.. loL!! joking la.. but i dun wished to continue on too much..

suddenly i had this crazy thing to blog about..

THinGs i've dOne/had at the aGe of 19.. be4 i tuRned 20.. with the bIg 2 infront.. :
1. Make fren with someone who is 58yrs old this yr n became gd frenz... she is maya.
2. had my 1st pay cheque
3. taking a salary which is way beyond A level cert holder should (guess it yourself! haHa!)
4. my 1st lV bag!! real ok..
5. 1st expensive xMas -mont blanc key chain + 100 bucks + 100 bucks voucher
6. 1st masking experience
7. 1st time paying almost to 300 bucks for dyeing hair
8. giving aWay my precIous 1st kiss ( i admit.. i did.. although i should say i regretted it rite now!)
9. wearing suit
10. 1st time wearing 3 inch heels to club, probably higher
11. 1st time karaoking with a grp of non-chi
12. 1st time having long skirt
13. 1st time buying 4-d n tat is the only time.. lOL!
14. 1st time seeing a real fight
15. kissing a stranger (hmm.. dunno how to explain but long story! )

for the time being, the list is so.. shall add on.. :)

{ 2/19/2006 11:29:00 PM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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