Saturday, April 22, 2006.

as prOmised, i finally took some time off from my sleep to blog.. there are simply too many stuff to update so i dunno how to start.. gosh! i really din noe y there r so many unhappy things happening around/to me.. i was in total depression 2-3 weeks ago.. yup! i was... due to my family and to make matter worst, my work place was in total mess... let me talk about work pl.. i'm now stationed at my new office which is just a unit away.. i was still in the old office training the newly joined soffia at the 2nd week of march and james & cedric decided to get an office administrator for the new office coz i was always nt there n cedric kept telling james no one was the office.. tat son of a BITCH (he is a total bastard coz he always get ppl into trouble and blow things up!)... it had came to andy's notice tat i m still in old office so he got quite unhappy and told geri tat i must not be at the old office anymore.. n geri let me over to the new office and made me work from 10-8pm! bloody hell.. so damn long lor.. though the pay is not too bad considering me with my A lvl cert only, i hate to work such long hours.. *bleaH*.. now i m used to it already la.. geri n mas dont seems to be too happy with me after i went over to the new office.. i dunno y.. mas even told geri i m not performing and she isnt too happy with my performance... shit! geri was raising her voice at me most of the time which is so different from the past.. mas too.. i was rather upset coz i m stuck in between.. andy had given me a chance to be an administrator which means i can learn more things yet geri doesnt seems to like the idea of me going over to the new office.. or either tat she was too tied up by work which made her really frustrated... n the poor me gets it! so damn unfair.. n i was totally sick of working there n wanted to quit during 1st april but with my family condition i decided to press on.. luckily the situation now is very much better ar bo i surely run away liaoz..
i've applied for ntu n nus this yr again.. dunno how the result will be like.. but most likely cant get it one la.. so walk 1 step c 1 step.. haIz!
as for faMily.. conditions seems to worsen day by day.. i m hanging on real hard.. but i have limited energy and means to help.. i tried my best.. i felt the heart pain each time i helped... i worked so damn hard and it just go out from my pocket so easily.. i m sad! utterly sad tat i seems to be the only 1 trying so hard to salvage the situation.. life is just so damn hard now.. worry is forever in my mind.. i tried to smile but it seems hard... i tried to look on the brighter side but the dark clouds loom... i tried to advise but to no avail... there is only 1 me... how m i supposed to handle this alone.. yes.. is alone.. i had so many things i luv to buy but i cant.. i need to save for rainy days.. it seems tat the weather is 365 days gloomy in my house.. when can i ever put all these down..
tat stuff aside.. i've successfully lose 2kg in 2 weeks.. *claps* aiming to lose more... went to shop with jacqueline last week and really enjoyed myself coz jacqueline is such a wonderful girl.. she is a nice company... n sun i went out with hui leng and wai ting.. was eyeing on this peirre cardin wallet which cost almost a hundred in taka.. too bad i used my taka voucher to get make-up if not i sure use tat voucher to buy.. *sob sOb* my eyes seems to b placing on expensive stuff nowadays.. shit right.. can buy.. i got so many things i wanna buy.. new handbag for work.. new heels..n there is this watch i fell in luv with @ one of this very nice shop near my work pl... but soooooo ex.. close to 300bucks.. from sweden... a green adidas jacket... madness man.. how to buy.. dream on... sianZ...

{ 4/22/2006 12:08:00 AM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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