Saturday, October 28, 2006.

thaNks to peppz who responded and make me feel slightly happier blogging knowing that at least there are still readers whom i seriously appreciate that be it out of curiousity or being concerned...
somehow.. this week seems bad.. almost everyday was a bad day especially on wed thurs fri and even today... mayb pmsing but i dont even understand why i am pmsing so badly this time round although i had been out quite often to beach volleyballs, blading, dragonboating.. i felt kinda depressed.. plus i had been sick for more than a week plus which i guessed was due to the haze.. Wed my dad met with an accident at work which caused an iron sharp-pointed rod to poke into his foot but luckily he is walking n jumping around right now.. healing real fast.. thank god!!! my dad is such a darling to me so i just cant bare to c him injured and it really hurts to c him in pain... Thurs one of my colleague actually sabotaged me in front of the MD and i kinda get a little reminder from my MD which the idea given to me was that i am not doing my job properly.. i stomped right up to confront my colleague and she was totally shocked and trying to fake nice and smoke it passed but i kept giving her the wtf attitude and even snob at her.. haha.. complained to Geri too and she actually told me not to worry coz she knows i have been doing my job properly.. Fri i was totally bored at work coz i finished all my designated job and was free like the whole day and i cant stand nt doing anything so i volunteered to help Valli with some very simple paperwork and Geri saw from outside the window.. she came in and told me nt to help them coz they will make it a habit but i know Valli and the rest aint those kinda peppz so what's wrong with helping.. i cant be sitting down the whole day doing nothing and if the bosses see, they gonna qns y i got nothing to do.. this also cannot that also cannot.. i am really feeling very unhappy and a strong sense of helplessness.. i seriously tot of quitting but i've got responsibilities and how to find job at the end of the yr plus my plans of going sch next yr will take place in Aug thus it is kinda diff to get job... i m no longer getting the kinda satisfaction i m gettin from my work.. i may b greedy but greedy in learning more is not a crime!!! i wanna put my brain into use and i know i m capable of doing alot yet i am restricted from learning and growing.. i seriously dun like this kinda feeling inside me.. it is tearing my mental well-being apart... HELP!!! Sat i was being forced to attend my grandma's bday which i tried running away by going home at 10 but my dad caught me.. argh!!!! plus many more factors...
somehow i dunno if somebody out there except for sarah understands what i m going through... it came to me so suddenly coz all along i tot it was gone n i was back to the me without any to hold back on but it seems like i was quite wrong.. was i too occupied to have realised or did i just gotten silly to be in this dragging on period??? i am just being silly here.. and i dunno what the hell i m thinking... aHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! pls slap me awake...

{ 10/28/2006 11:43:00 PM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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