Wednesday, January 17, 2007.

It hasnt been gd for me for the past 2 weeks or so.. i was in a deep state of self-doubt and this was enough to keep me from sleeping well at night.. the yr din started off gd for me.. i dun feel the slightest happiness transferring to the finance dept coz i became so "new" to the company coz it was though i m over the other side of the world when i was in charge of recept.. i used to be with mas and geri when i first started off and back then i did little or sort of admin for finance in the company and in fact mas told me that i was going to move into doing more of what she was doing which is finance related stuff in majority but due to company's expansion and andy's plan was to get me to administrate the whole of unit 14 office and to be in charge of reception as well.. the feeling was further worsen coz i made some mistakes here n there... though not big, i keep thinking tat would geri/andy or whoever might think tat i am incapable??? i am not as gd and productive as they thought i was?? it was damn disheartening.. like i said to fauziah i cant forgive myself for little mistakes i made and this really kills my days... mas n geri is like in the 70/80m mark in the 100m race and yatie is in the 50m mark and here i m starting at the starting line only.. i felt sad.. i cant doubt it.. i hate to be the newbie in the dept esp when i m like with the company for closed to 2 yrs.. and i hate to be such a nuisance to keep asking this n that.. argh! plus i m only in-charge of the incoming invoices and get the cheques done, the necessities for the company (coz they said i m with the company long enough to know what is needed) and the flights/hotels bookings... heavier responsibility but lesser work.. ok.. the only gd thing is that i m working from 12pm-8pm and sat from 12pm-6pm (alternately)...
It was just the beginning but i felt like ending the yr 2007... it doesnt seems gd to me.. hai!
Started my dip last week and bloody hell the mktg professor is a real b*tcH... he has big ego and trust me he is a shopaholic.. lol.. his class was nt that bad but the econs one was "-_-.. the lecturer keeps saying actually.. and she threw us qns back instead of answering our doubts... but i was fortunate.. our bosses actually took time off their bz schedules to go through the notes with us after the classes the next day to help us understand the topic better.. they are really thoughtful...n the txtbk is fully paid for all the subject we taking.. here we are talking abt 40-60 plus per book... just gotten my principles of mktg book today.. and last week of jan.. got to hand in the 1st draft for proj.... argh.. plus the tot of prsnt.. my fear... my stage fright.. *bleAh*

{ 1/17/2007 01:13:00 AM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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