Saturday, October 20, 2007.

I am under loads of stress from my current work.. all coz of the no. of workload piling up so fast with no one i can turn to.... just pile and pile.. given the speed of clearing my work yet the work still piling up.. cant get help is one thing, another would be getting help yet in the end having more work for myself = the person is of no help yet mess up my things.. she is simply hopeless.. (i cant mention name, i scare kenna sue!! haha... )plus there is this fly hovering around me keep calling"JEANNE"... wtf... you think my name is so fun to call izit.. give me a god damn break.. you are not helping me.. u r just making me frustrated with everything.. i almost want to go bonkers few days ago.. plus all the "taiqi" masters... everything say jeanne should have it... jeanne should know it... i tot you doing it.. CB la!!! damn too much... i do your things then i want ur share of salary too.. quoted from one of my colleague which is like so true... just bz bz and more bz... work just isnt too good... i can feel my eyes dropping out from too much screen staring.. 2 days ago, i woke up feeling my left eye painful and yesterday swollen and today, red and sooooo painful... lower eyelid... hui leng said i am heaty.. think so.. bz until no time to drink water for hours..
Next week i got to hand up a project for my POA class and the lecturer is really what my daddy use to say half past six... lousy like dunno what.. beyond description.. simply teach us how to copy one figure from one side to another.... lack of practise and a total waste of my time.. as well go home and watch my American Next top Model.... i m sooooo addicted to it.. it is so nostalgic to watch each week how these girls compete to be the top... i like the rush in me when i watch ANTM.. 2 of the 13picked are girls who had rounder figure and the black girl is so confident of herself and tyra banks commented ANTM is not abt pretty face but personality and how you carry yourself in public.. tot it was a fair comment to girls like me who had rounder figure.. why should the opportunity of being a model be for skinny girls? fat girls dont deserve a chance??? so SG guys wake up!!!!! stop critising girls who are abit plump ok..
I felt so vulnerable whenever i like someone or in this case r/s... i admit i am a strong girl in almost everything but not in rs.. i easily tear.. i need loads of love.. i need to be loved... i am insecure... why do i felt changes are taking pl slowly.. i felt the distance is getting further and further.. i dont feel your feeling as much now although i am almost with you everyday... i felt emotionally i m so bloody weak that i hate myself for that.. i wish i am much stronger... nitez without being by your side seems so hard for me to sleep, u r the sleeping magic of my life.. i want u to know i wish u can reply my sms more often.. i dun like the idea of ppl nt replying my sms... is it a very difficult thing to do? are you still the same old person mths back??

{ 10/20/2007 01:11:00 AM }

narcissism.

jEaNne Neo
14 mAy 1986
TaurUs/tIgresS
mFps, xMss, nyjC and sMa-sch of managemeNt
lOves sunFlowers, roseS, puRple, perFumes, clotHes!!!!, shOpping, eatIng, hangIng out with freNz, golden tAn n my family

materialist.

i want this

A better working environment
Good break
Sleep
10kg of fats off my body
Driving license
New cupboard.. i need more space for my clothes!
Killer abs so i can pierce my bellybutton!
Treat my family to dinner
Degree
A shoes cupboard for all my shoes!!!

voices.

memories.

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